Too old for this shit

It is getting so fucking annoying (sorry carut). But since the last time I saw you with her I know you like her and today it's still the same.

The way it looks still the same. Most probably you haven't said anything about it. Man up dude. If you like her go for it.

It's getting so fucking annoying even for me let alone my friends. I can tell that they are bored with me sending all your pics I took from afar (yes i'm a creepy stalker liddat).

But you are still there I can't help but to look at you, because your hair and your broad shoulder and your smiles, and your lame jokes are calling me, but it's sickening how you are going for her but never done any shit about it.

Whatever loser. your life sucks.

Kamu Yang Ku Tunggu - Rossa feat Afgan

Dok pandai ngorat.
Kalu pandai ngorat ada gewe doh.

Once this post was published, I realized that below update, was also for the same guy.
Haha.
Crush is still valid after six months? Yes.
Saw him in April. APRIL. WTF have I done, or not done. I could have at least known if he's married or not by now.
BUT NOPE.

I regretted not saying Hi the other day (I didn't revisit this page that often, hence, I forgot my vow. Lol)
We were totally in our zone, only the two of us, he looked so cool, but I was so messy sweating from Zumba and such. Didn't feel like a great Hi moment.

He stepped in (we were in a hall) looked around for briefly two seconds. We made eye contact for what it feels like split nano second, he walked in front of me, from where I know he could totally smell my sweat (not so romantic) and he walked away. AWAY.

Those kind of moment don't always happen.

AH btw. I kind of know why he doesn't have FB or IG. because he's friggin 36. 36 YEARS OLD YUP.

I wish I had the guts. WHY DO I HAVE TO BE SO FATTTT. This fat are eating my confidence away.

Cater 2 You

So amazing how I can fall head over heels for someone whom I know nothing about but his name.
There's something so mysterious about this man that I feel so attracted to.
I'm thinking he doesn't have a facebook or instagram account because he's cool like that - yes I searched but to no avail.

I wish I am more approachable or at least brave, but the next time I saw him I vow to myself I'll say Hi briefly.

The thing about being single at the age of 29 is it makes you feel like 19 all over again (but with some risk).

I think I have a fear of rejection bigger than the fear of commitment.
And fear of living alone has got nothing at all compared to the above.

Linger

I thought it's over and then you are there with your wife and your baby and your top notch stroller.

And I saw you.

Of all the places. Of all the people.

Why.

Do you have to let it linger.

You know I'm such a fool for you.

EL

Adakah perasaan rindu ini valid?

Sedih

Just one of those days you feel like crying but you can't because you have no reason to.
Tapi dada berat.
Hati sarat dengan rindu.

Find your own peace.

Mewangi

Selamanya hati ini akan selalu memujamu.

My particular favourite line, kind of speaks a whole lot about everything.

New York

I wanna be a part of it, New York, New York.

I wanna wake up in a city that never sleeps.

If I can make it there, I'll make it anywhere.

It's up to you, New York, New York. 

This gives me sensations.

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Dear John

Dear John
Just because I don't say I love you doesn't mean I don't love you.
I do.

I still flinched a bit when I hear your name.
I still flinched a lot when I say your name.

They heard me. They knew.
They told me to stay away from you.

I still believe our path will cross again.
Call me crazy, but, I believe.

Happy birthday baby.

Only You - CeeLo Green Featuring Lauriana Mae

Well everybody says, time will clean up this mess.

ps: A little reminder, a married man will never leave his wife.

Can't Help Falling In Love

Which version of this song is your favourite?

Mine is Richard Marx's.

This one is for all of us, because at one point we all have fall in love with someone;

who doesn't feel the same.

Take my hand, take my whole life too
For I can't help falling in love with you

To never ever give up in finding love.

Miss Advised

They mentioned his name and I finched a bit.
He may be married now.
But if somewhere it's written that I'll be with him when he's divorced,
It only means we are halfway through.

I know this is bad but a girl can keep on dreaming.

Dhian dan Dhani

God knows things that I would do for my brothers.

I may not be a loving sister, but if they need my kidney, my lungs, my heart, my liver, my brain,

I'd give em to them.

Dhian and Dhani are the reason why I watched Cinta for the millionth time and still sobbed like a baby, everytime.

Saga

I could watch this a million times and still cry.
Everything about this is perfect.
The detailings on the dress, the song, the set up, the vow, the ring on Bella's finger.
Perfect
Edward Cullen is perfect.

One day.

Rindu

Pada kekasih.

Reality Isn't Pretty

So you always said you will wait till forever until the right guy comes along.
Defining right guys meaning having the perfect guy in mind.

Until reality hits you, the ultimate single girl you know is finally getting married at the age of 30 to a secret guy.

So you thought everything is perfect, the right guy finally comes along. In your head, the right (secret) guy, is nothing less than Hans Isaac.

And then she spills the bean, here comes the big, fat, guy with no hair and round belly. And you realised, reality, isn't pretty.

Unless you're Carrie Bradshaw, your mr perfect, isn't Aidan.

Blame it on Sex and The City.

Sigh. I need to get my expectation right because reality isn't pretty.

ps: I know Carrie ends up with Big, but I love Aidan, so i'm biased that way.

Selama Kau Mau

Ketahuilah kalau aku diberi peluang
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Tak Apalah

“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu. Allah mengatahui, sedang kamu tidak mengatahui.” 
(Surah al – Baqarah 2:216).

Semoga I tak jadi orang yang hanya ingat Tuhan waktu frust sahaja.

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