Happy Ending

"And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope."

- Gigi, He's Just Not That Into You
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Maroon 5 - If I Fell

If I give my heart to you

I must be sure

From the very start

That you would love me more than her

The other day, while talking to Kaykay, I told her how we both has lost so many guys just because we are fat.

You know, guys hate fat girls.

So a few guys have come and gone, all good looking all making good money, but they never look our way. Why would they? We are fat. As much as we're taking all the space, we're still unnoticeable.

And then I said, look how we have lost because we are fat! We must not be fat! we must lost weight blahblah and then it hits me, lightning, whatever.

Astaghfirullah. I said it in my prayer, everyday. Only to Allah has I always ask, for Him to give me, show me, lend me, provide me, the guy that is the best for me when the time is right.

Now you see, YOU SEE, the time is not right, I HAVE ASKED FROM ALLAH, I am sure he listens, he is listening and he understands and this is all in His plans and Subhanallah it's not yet the time!

You're fat because it's not the time yet, Azhani. Allah knows best! If you have to be thin to meet the guy then Allah will make you skinny whatever, but MasyaAllah Azhani, you must believe that this all will work in His time.

Remember to always ask for the best guy in the best time. Allah knows. Now they all may be the best guys but it's not yet the best time, so don't complain. Because you have asked, everyday, 5 times (sometimes more) a day, HE IS LISTENING! KEEP ON BELIEVING!

If you wanna lost weight then lost weight. In all logic world yes no guy will like you if you're fat so be thin. But Allah will work His charms and miracles when it's time Hani.

Maybe in some way He is sending Adam Levine your way, YOU NEVER KNOW!

HE IS LISTENING! KEEP ON BELIEVING!

And I was right

So today the guy I always look at appears with a baby in a carrier.
So I was right about all the good guys are taken. I was always right.

I'm not saying I want to marry them.
Because for me to want to marry them they have to want to marry me first.
But you see I'm fat and all so I don't think they would.
So I don't mind.

Annnnnnyway
I'm just saying it would be better if everytime I look at them my mind is not thinking about how lucky their wives are.
I want to at least have a respect to the wives.
Because damn they are lucky bitch.
I want to be a lucky bitch
but hey I'm just a fat bitch.

I wish all married men just turned ugly.
It would be so much easier for us.

The thing about me is, when I look at someone from distance and I like him, and then I will find out that he earns 10k per month, he drives a mercedes, he's from my born-town land blabla just so perfect and bam he's married

HE IS ALWAYS MARRIED OR TAKEN.

ALWAYS.

the universe better had reserved someone so good for me.

RAPUH - AGNES MONICA

Sometimes I wish all those guys I used to like just die or get married and live happily ever after.

It's so hard to forget somebody and move on when they have done nothing wrong to you.

I am fragile. I like you and i hate you.

I love you even when I hate you.

I will forget what you said, i will forgive what you did.

Let's start again.

Pick me, choose me, love me.

i still want you. i still want you. i still want you.

Pick me, choose me, love me

In a very perfect world, this would be the very perfect thing to say.

Distance - Christina Perri

Say I Love You when you're not listening.

Cinta Dalam Hati

'He's getting married'.

I think dah sampai masa untuk i biasakan diri dengan ayat ni. My ex boyfriend is getting married, every guy I like or used to like is getting married. so basically when I say 'hey ingat tak this guy that I told you about, yeah he's getting married' but not to me

So everytime this happened and I saw the photos of their happiness I can't help but to say, you bitch, you're living my dream.

And then something weird happened. I went to a crush's house and it's very familiar. And I can't help but to develop the memory of every single detail I had in my mind of this place, of this chair, of this stairs, of this road, and I remembered, I've been here, and I've had a crush on him before too!

this is weird.

Like Rachel said to Joey, 'so basically you’ve slept with all the woman in New York and now you’re just going around again?'

In my case, I've been having crush on people within my reach, lots of them, that I forgot I like them, and I like them back? weird!

and yup, he is too, is getting married.

But not 7 years ago when I first saw him and first liked him, he was not getting married.
Or last 2 years when I was enchanted by his jokes and stuff, he was too not getting married.

in fact he was just out of a relationship with his ex girlfriend, and then I saw him again he was ultimately single. and then again he was with a girl and bam now he's engaged and getting married.

Apparently while he was within my reach I was not within his.

How ironic is it that I am so big yet so invisible.
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