Too old for this shit

It is getting so fucking annoying (sorry carut). But since the last time I saw you with her I know you like her and today it's still the same.

The way it looks still the same. Most probably you haven't said anything about it. Man up dude. If you like her go for it.

It's getting so fucking annoying even for me let alone my friends. I can tell that they are bored with me sending all your pics I took from afar (yes i'm a creepy stalker liddat).

But you are still there I can't help but to look at you, because your hair and your broad shoulder and your smiles, and your lame jokes are calling me, but it's sickening how you are going for her but never done any shit about it.

Whatever loser. your life sucks.

Kamu Yang Ku Tunggu - Rossa feat Afgan

Dok pandai ngorat.
Kalu pandai ngorat ada gewe doh.

Once this post was published, I realized that below update, was also for the same guy.
Haha.
Crush is still valid after six months? Yes.
Saw him in April. APRIL. WTF have I done, or not done. I could have at least known if he's married or not by now.
BUT NOPE.

I regretted not saying Hi the other day (I didn't revisit this page that often, hence, I forgot my vow. Lol)
We were totally in our zone, only the two of us, he looked so cool, but I was so messy sweating from Zumba and such. Didn't feel like a great Hi moment.

He stepped in (we were in a hall) looked around for briefly two seconds. We made eye contact for what it feels like split nano second, he walked in front of me, from where I know he could totally smell my sweat (not so romantic) and he walked away. AWAY.

Those kind of moment don't always happen.

AH btw. I kind of know why he doesn't have FB or IG. because he's friggin 36. 36 YEARS OLD YUP.

I wish I had the guts. WHY DO I HAVE TO BE SO FATTTT. This fat are eating my confidence away.

Cater 2 You

So amazing how I can fall head over heels for someone whom I know nothing about but his name.
There's something so mysterious about this man that I feel so attracted to.
I'm thinking he doesn't have a facebook or instagram account because he's cool like that - yes I searched but to no avail.

I wish I am more approachable or at least brave, but the next time I saw him I vow to myself I'll say Hi briefly.

The thing about being single at the age of 29 is it makes you feel like 19 all over again (but with some risk).

I think I have a fear of rejection bigger than the fear of commitment.
And fear of living alone has got nothing at all compared to the above.

Linger

I thought it's over and then you are there with your wife and your baby and your top notch stroller.

And I saw you.

Of all the places. Of all the people.

Why.

Do you have to let it linger.

You know I'm such a fool for you.

EL

Adakah perasaan rindu ini valid?

Sedih

Just one of those days you feel like crying but you can't because you have no reason to.
Tapi dada berat.
Hati sarat dengan rindu.

Find your own peace.

Mewangi

Selamanya hati ini akan selalu memujamu.

My particular favourite line, kind of speaks a whole lot about everything.