Happy Ending

"And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope."

- Gigi, He's Just Not That Into You
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Maroon 5 - If I Fell

If I give my heart to you

I must be sure

From the very start

That you would love me more than her

The other day, while talking to Kaykay, I told her how we both has lost so many guys just because we are fat.

You know, guys hate fat girls.

So a few guys have come and gone, all good looking all making good money, but they never look our way. Why would they? We are fat. As much as we're taking all the space, we're still unnoticeable.

And then I said, look how we have lost because we are fat! We must not be fat! we must lost weight blahblah and then it hits me, lightning, whatever.

Astaghfirullah. I said it in my prayer, everyday. Only to Allah has I always ask, for Him to give me, show me, lend me, provide me, the guy that is the best for me when the time is right.

Now you see, YOU SEE, the time is not right, I HAVE ASKED FROM ALLAH, I am sure he listens, he is listening and he understands and this is all in His plans and Subhanallah it's not yet the time!

You're fat because it's not the time yet, Azhani. Allah knows best! If you have to be thin to meet the guy then Allah will make you skinny whatever, but MasyaAllah Azhani, you must believe that this all will work in His time.

Remember to always ask for the best guy in the best time. Allah knows. Now they all may be the best guys but it's not yet the best time, so don't complain. Because you have asked, everyday, 5 times (sometimes more) a day, HE IS LISTENING! KEEP ON BELIEVING!

If you wanna lost weight then lost weight. In all logic world yes no guy will like you if you're fat so be thin. But Allah will work His charms and miracles when it's time Hani.

Maybe in some way He is sending Adam Levine your way, YOU NEVER KNOW!

HE IS LISTENING! KEEP ON BELIEVING!

And I was right

So today the guy I always look at appears with a baby in a carrier.
So I was right about all the good guys are taken. I was always right.

I'm not saying I want to marry them.
Because for me to want to marry them they have to want to marry me first.
But you see I'm fat and all so I don't think they would.
So I don't mind.

Annnnnnyway
I'm just saying it would be better if everytime I look at them my mind is not thinking about how lucky their wives are.
I want to at least have a respect to the wives.
Because damn they are lucky bitch.
I want to be a lucky bitch
but hey I'm just a fat bitch.

I wish all married men just turned ugly.
It would be so much easier for us.

The thing about me is, when I look at someone from distance and I like him, and then I will find out that he earns 10k per month, he drives a mercedes, he's from my born-town land blabla just so perfect and bam he's married

HE IS ALWAYS MARRIED OR TAKEN.

ALWAYS.

the universe better had reserved someone so good for me.